Noemie MaxwellTHRUMDe thunder of soils spoils spells the lacquer of shells. De cove slew krills. De thunderous coil loom de caw caw de crow flume de loam the sweet cone's down. Multiplicity: grass grows outward from every pore. Folly: Blossoms layer upward from petiole. Under layer floats pecan, the number of stars. Under the known world a wolf nosing the snow. Don't let the opportunity pass! The loop the lope the fire the schtetl the clew. I could not live if light were not a rope for climbing. Beloved chest where underneath beats hard. The dark theater and the continuous canopy of light. Thrum rattle secular. Thrum wicker throne. Climb. A warm weight in my palms. Threnody. The eye of another. When I walk in the forest I am as tall as the trees. When I walk in the marsh I am as low as the swale. I could not live if others were not real. Fall for sublunary charm. Fall for lichen and bole, fall for salamander, sphere, fall for the number of stars, Be strong, move with grace, be fortunate, fend. The living surface of the planet is the film of an eye. The ground is what we stand on. Skin sheds, that's good design. Ooze and cleanse. Spectre, makar. The pores relax or seize. The markets are full of meat with veins of fat like veins of the leaf. Lichen, bracken, sward. Asunder. salamander. coronary. The bole and the flare and the number of stars. Palpable the answer, spade spadix spathe. Aspirate. Spear. Bole and flare. Do tell of a little flock. Angelic jape of the storm. Do tell of a spoke spring. Forgot a harm. Check clock check clerk check cork storm steam. Tender shoot on the tongue. Splendid sortie. Stitch, stitch. Cortical portcullis. Botswain, skallawag, senechal, hatch tickler, vocational counselor. Seer, spear carrier, weaver of basket and baker of soils, schneiderman, forester, mushrom farmer, cartographer, bearer of the oriflamme, miser, haberdasher, welder, maker of foolscap, posh horseradish, ankle vent, mail handler, flesh scent of the moorings, sybarite, gramineous knee, lakewater, prattler, fin darting behind a rock, underwater steam spring whirling and roiling. Brachiopod whirling and roiling. Lapidary. Forager. Rash teller of tales. Gooseberry, anthill, peach buttocks. Baleful calico, fire (plenty of fire.) A matinee, a picketline. Moisture around the lid. Imperfect gasket. Pickpocket. The great arms of the sky. Squid, strudel, powerless pensive pussy. Forestal ash, severe tidal pull. Fricative. Pollster. Raconteur. ALL DEEP ENDS ON WHAT IS REMEMBERED. New things you won't use because of their newness. Bear's teeth biting the apple close to the hand. Trips between islands. Mastadon. Tire recycling center. He lost his hand. The desolate tax preparing travel agencies of Brooklyn He lost the branches of his palm. You are saved at the last moment by the smell and warmth of another. You are saved at the last moment: honor the life of another. There is a convulsion on the surface. A kind person will intervene. There is currentless movement. You will stumble into a warm room. You will leave behind the rivulets in the igneous crater. This is a bountiful sphere. You will pull your life off your own fingers as it flowers there. You will be led to safety. Which is why you must save the child. The infant is curled inside you. Never has a flower been so lost. The whole enterprise is turning into earth. Branches of the palm. Ladybugs swarming under the lens of the creek. Ideational loop. Could I release the caged animal. Caterpillar pale. Eggs of the dragonfly in the viscous pond. All moribund. The lush slick underwater colonies of green. How seductive is war. Transformation of the bear with its necklace of fish. The venal govern us. Meisterbrau. Heron. Colonies of green. How does the spider migrate? Dark Trees. Owl lives here. And a man with a bicycle. Glassblower blows glass seahorse colony, the culture blossoms, destroying those who sink forgotten. Belltower and precipitous stairway. The congregation sinks, forgotten. The proprietor, Bobby, is drunk. This is a recession. The cottage in the woods. The barricade, the anthracite mine. The flea market. The orphanage of underwater. Don't cry. Be brave. This time is no worse than others. Her skirt is yellow with green and purple eyes. It swirls along the line of store fronts. Glass comes from the earth. Facsimilies come from earth. Foc's'les come from earth. Follicles, followers, madrigals, particals, sanctuaries, magnetic traps, festivals, shanties, prayer rugs, salons. Hammers lined up. Palliative. Lone lashed hysterical and marooned. CORPOREAL. SIDEREAL. Meisterbrau. The hot dry climate, the clay pots, small houses, windows sills annealed. Worms baked in their tunnels, lizard eggs in the keyholes. Pleistecene era. Mister, you are too much. Up your sleeve is a scroll of ideas. Russians under New York. Tourists discuss the Brooklyn Bridge. Lymph water. Float outside the biosphere. Some will be lame or under grown, missing one part or another, afflicted with hypertrophy, out of their proper element. The majority will be healthy and well-formed. Hail of stones. Broom folder. Flocculating Missy Porter. Fortune teller. Young man with a braid, member of the metalworker's guild. Penitent seller of corsets hats and girdles. Flecked with mud like a flounder. Three parts of rumor up your sleeve. Sweet swale. Sidle here. Double again with I swear it never happened. Tie up a lamb-baster and pierce with an arrow. Next, row downstream, ignoring the flesh eating gleaming flitters. If beetles drop from the undersides of leaves onto curved water hammocks, don't disturb them, you fussbudget, you Indian giver. Harp hemp herpes. Sickle shaped multifarious lashers in suspension. Pride of her core and flame of her coral. Henchman. Psalter. These words form other integral morpho- linguistic lumps. Loose shanks. Hinged, mud-soaked. It lolls and japes. All day we move in starlight. Sinker sinker. Feels good. Practice at the loom. Practice wool, hemp lamp and harp. Hoop and lip. Saddle. Croon. Bang the hot curl of iron in the tong. Fly over the sill and into the dogwood in bloom. We live in nests. All tasks are assigned. I loom. He harps. I wheedle. She bubbles candy over the fire and wears a red checked apron. It is June. Rain has fallen. The two eyes of the nightplane steadily gain altitude over the wooden frame of the house. Every window glows. Where is the firefly, emissary, flame thrower, man of steel. Over the fence gleams the river. Under the water more gleaming still, the incredible complexity of scales, iridescent, my dream of movement has come alive. I pass my hand over the light. Different shades of skin. Hers is coral. Cone and lone killer. SHELL of the town crier. A task for everyone. Lantern and key. Past the fence gleams the river. Cronies, misery-seekers, engine racers, obfuscators, confessors, haridans and pinking shears. Past order is more order. Past everything, compared as it is with thing, is within thing. Therefore, I have become unable to trust even under ordinary conditions. Shine shoes. Lazybone. Cantankerous sack of pride. Wood grain contains the town. No malice but absorption. Mollusk. Rant. Rock and the barnacle's cement. Lamprey. Ladybugs dropping and swarming, more armor under their domes. Red skirt with black and purple eyes swirling. The dancers of showboat. The tendons of the dancers' arms. In extremis. Masthead is the image of the continuous scissoring of legs. I cannot eat that. Whoop. The woods. The bats. The wheat and weevil and womb. More hats! Asterisk has significance. Parlance, wick the water through. Mention history. The bard is true. A law was passed against me. I lived under the rotting logs by the creek. Water flowed through all my holes. My tear ducts pores and teats became pure. But my feet swelled with gangrene. I found a magic car in the classifieds. My feet grew back. I cleaned his walnut scalp with green, was his servant, confessor, feather duster. Soon the police found me. I was caged, an unhappy animal. How I pined. I had no bar of soap. No fire to burn my hair, no ash to write. A rash battened on me. In there, glass seahorses thatched roofs, grieved their lost and broken ones, wrote songs. Happy harp. The dance the apple horse the ice maiden. The chemist and his secrets. Rings in rings benzene. Inca Matilda. Malice toward none. One day the door opened. The lord had been ransomed or the town sacked. I almost snapped in two. Moth's hat. Spider swirled down after the battle of the night. Why is the night black. My clever nephew, apple of my eye. Observes the dance, the calico, the apple horse delirious with lemon. He also sees trombones. Washerwoman's big pink hands. Poor man, out in the carriage all night. Poor horse. Kitten crying for America. Pissed off. Kissed by fish. Batten on it. Resplendent like Ailanthus. Porcine. Payphone. Prom queen. Hanker beset secretary. Hardass. A sparrow in the box. A pea rattling in the pod. One application of the miraculous aloe. The ghost of their near demise. What did I care if I was taken hook hoop, sinker and wick, my barrel trembling on the edge of the cataract! The bells of the goats, the pale larvae exposed, the beetle-laced wood. Lichen, my favorite fruit, mimicing the leap. Schooner sepal weep and shale. Frail angst, dissolves as ceases the magnetic force. Deliquescent angst, past penitence! Felicity. Stand clear of the closing doors. The shiny hammock of water silken under the carapace, legs tenderly testing the air, underside up, the scary segmented underside of the strange and ubiquitous beetle! Clean break. Must not approach the matter trivially. The door closes. Wash hangs across the alley. Foam cup bobs in the gutter. Slim smooth legs of the young woman. Voice of the rabbi. I cannot move because the dog growls. A child has died. Square frame shifts like a shuttle, the film over the tissue readjusting. Blue globe forms on the out breath. If I don't wake him, the currentless room will protect. Flying over the towns. Entering the wilderness. Entering the pine barrens. Flurry in the speculum. The intelligent wood insect. Cities lit by the deaths of whales. Incantations of the street visionaries, pupils hanging high in the orbs. I'm hungry, Ma'm. It hurts. Each moment with its slow belly brushing the earth. Franchise of the sickle shape. Our existence is an inflammation on the earlobe of Mr. Carswell. "Logic is a way to stop time." Imagine a book louse. Imagine a hair from a hammernose. Imagine a clay. A muscle. A thistle. A sidewinder. A Mars. We have a new table. Flecked egg broken open and the shell discarded. It is the shell, not the yolk and albumen that is flecked. Creates a beautiful time piece like ailanthus wheels with their parallel pinnates undulating in snake tongues. Tongues of ibex, the tongue of the causeway. Littoral soils and loams. The planet purifies us. Wide sweep. Air is nectar. Nico loves to breathe. How can distance exist in a vaccuum? Morels. Botswana. Miribalis. Fecundia. Loamy soil. I burp peat moss. Umbel heart of the frog beating under the knife. Pity the creatures who perish in the deluge. Carved a heron, carved a lion, carved a jade bear, carried a bucket of water, carried a basket with berries, mushrooms roots, bark, feathers and a few bison teeth culled from a skeletal wreck. Fortunate was the traveller in time. Hydrogen atoms flipping their orbits every 11 million years. Give a hum. I fear to sink my teeth into the prey. Live and harm. Recognize the churning of matter, constant unstoppable renewal generation, the electric flip. How little electricity we use in our bodies, how efficient a use of energy! LEARN CHEMISTRY. Be apothecary. A cup of air on earth contains more than a billion trillion molecules. Perfidy. Betrayal. Inflatable legs. You are in your thirties. Whine from the heliport is constant. They've got some new kind of surveillance worked out there. My neighbor is a blond kid, skinny knees. He got caught up in this thing. Basket case. Tripped and no stair caught him. He heard a vague threat. Took every hill. Soaked the cloud in chemical and wrung it down. It was a consipiracy. Hustler of trees by day, cleaner of slates by early morning light. Day came closer, yes, perfidy approached. Terminus bristled in a so so enactment of a meltdown in the salivary engine of the sense of loss. Sloppy revolution of a partially melted gear. A whir interrupted by a conversation. Husserl halibut saturate amateur. Blastula creeping under statistical wall sent by a humdinger of a president. Outlawed by several invincible foes. Teller of misfortune. Sharer of the meat of pumpkin. What can window do about this mess? What can we winnow out. Taker of tickets, murderer of trees. Seldom such calumny. Portion out the underlying deceit. Siphon off the frightened waters. A hundred expanding metals. Now the fire in the window. Cantor, you pall. Forget I mentioned your meadow, your weevils. Mantis' mandibles. The whole field on fire. Sky comes down closer to the furrow and drops a pocket of droplets from which, autochthonous, come the sowers of whatever it is you taste now. He'll die within the year and you'll be bunching up your stomach in your palms for the hungry sorrow and silt of it. Visually, a grand duke. Aurally, a flying sheet with pillow and caffeine. Tactile report: the center has retreated and the edges puff and crack. A line of cells surrounding a soft center coding for life. Henchmen are another expression of lust. Silence is a strangling of the urge to play. A quiet hand is one that isn't twisting a towel, a birdneck, or a waterbearer. Go on. In several rotations the bunch of grapes fastened by a stream of sweat to a plastic globe will break off and hurtle in a hysterical trajectory toward an innocent. Who can guarantee a satisfactory resolve? The train passed this time yesterday. I hear it now, a family of geese, a fence to keep them out, and a ruminating murder inside the house. The cabal of engines. Misjudgment. The wound. Poor visibility. Ask for mercy receive a fish. Ask for peace. Rich cache of protein the node the pouch the flower the medicine the hurt arm the split garnet. Screen is filtering light light comes daily molecules gather spin. The distance an average molecule travels before hitting another is the time elapsed between the probability of the event occuring at all. Particulate sediment. Acorn whizzing out to Maryland. The houses have been uprooted and the driveway moved. You can float now, it's ok. We were trying to start the engine of a fragile helicoptor. A young girl ran up with a sweater in case of crash in cold climate. Crackers were stored. Back and forth we rocked, like a motel, every moment expecting the slice on the back of the neck. Meanwhile, a branch was pushed to the window by the wind and, without looking, one would not be able to distinguish fiber from bird. The branches were launched into the light like a mote blown into the crevice of a disintegrating shutter. Only four days after the deaths did the report come in, filled with ludicrous misstatements, distortions and innuendoes. Tour guide body guard or apple seller? Two large glass globes with smooth-lipped apertures opening up above. Propmaster. Industrial sabateour or animal trainer. The harmless people of god. Grant applicant. Tubercular horse. Spiny or horned greb. Steps to the beach. Avoid all perternatural gibbonish portly men in tumbling hutches graining the surface of a shining bodice. Lazy bum. Could have gone to prison for a year. Silk bottom. I die when I wake. Blithely hand the man a $1 bill. Hook me up with a ribald sad witch of a salesman in heat with the gulp of a nonplussed handgun. Watch two matchsticks contend for the prize. A globule of red squeezes out. Portentious. Extremely hardhit with 1/15th of a wanderlust. I thought he was a saint, but he was only disingenuous. He washes his turban in the blue water under a decaying bridge. Chortle. What you say depends on who hears it. Screen door. The day is laced with fire, laced with a dread harboring a gargantuan itch in your wandering eye. Sojourn hop in a gogo rapture. Hazy mix nor would engine be late. You're mummified. The whole earth is separating at the seams of magma and crust. Horse radish. Cantata for 3 horns and a hoof. Patch of dry skin. Loose on your toes. Afraid, but you do it anyway. Move along to the right till the aftersmell fades. Her pink flower wets itself. The striped tender of the beach incurred. Clues in my round firestarter are all around. Be kind to animals. The wasp pinned between the panes of occlusion, nervous veins of plastic mimicing biological process, the factory of the leaf, external, undeviating and final. Be kind to animals. No wash away. No vision of a clean home. At 30, exeunt the childhoods. A new childhood, lived through all past and future lives. I have the stones I love, malachite and leopard agate. Be kind to the animals who disturb the fastidious order of the home, the ant & millipede & spider & centipede & mouse & red mite & fat, blood mite & roach & cat. The world endlessly recreates its topographies with particles I labor to eradicate. I must harm. Harm and release my life from the clutches of my own grasp. Life should not be bitter. Hair inky, we oar like divers lashing over volute elisians. Tender occlusion's kiln inside your sinking skeleton, your sweet self's always lonely, like onyx, vole, ermine. Ravishing! I must live and harm. The complex nodes. The omnitones, the action adventure. I will learn a trick and perform it for you. "I would like," I said to the inexplicable creature in whose cup I dangled fearlessly, "to desire and consume only what's necessary and no more. I want a rest from gulping coffee, changing clothes, showering, preparing food, vacuuming, buying and throwing stuff away, looking in mirrors, twitching, chewing, tapping, apologizing." The creature's voice came from the direction of the eye underneath me: "What seems like a bunch of tics to you is your body driving you to find what you need but don't know enough to look for. You've got to remember that nature is extravagant Excess is normal and you can't cut it out of your life." "But I want to live more simply," I said. "It's not possible to honestly articulate such a desire." the creature said. I glanced at the swirling mucous of the eye below me, a first nervous thought of falling. As if to reassure me, a tendril bent wetly from a pore of the breathing wall and wrapped around my chest. The tendril it replaced retreated for replenishment. Several yards away a minor cup spored, and the filaments diffused gently throughout the cavity. One landed on my lips and tingled there. When I touched it with my tongue, warmth spread and I burped peat moss. The pinnate claws of the other minor cups trembled in sympathy with the now empty sac twisting and collapsing on its stem. "Just because you're astonishing and powerful and I don't know how the fuck I got here doesn't mean your wisdom is unassailable," I said. "I know I want to live more simply. It's true." "You're full of shit," it answered. "You're obsessing on irrelevancies and lying to yourself. Cutting excess out of your life by depriving yourself is absurd; it's deprivation that drives excess in the first place. Listen, forget the petty chipping away at your own pitiful little subterfuges. Leave them in place, pursue your desires. You'll find what you lack that way. It's the only way out of the trap. "First you say excess in normal, then you say it's created by deprivation." "Where's the contradiction in that? You see it as a contradiction because you equate desireability and normality. In equating those two things you expose yourself as someone who understands the world in terms of good and bad. Desireable and normal are related to each other only as much as everything is related. You better get your shit together, sister. Listen. You might be right in your perception that your life is choking with useless gesture and consumption, but you don't know which gestures and which consumption in that mess are essential to you. Right in the typical vein of your heritage you come up with these virtuous resolutions to eradicate what your inaccurate, Manichean view of the world says is bad. And all the time you're walking around among creatures who are dying, literally, for what you have. You're so fucking self-involved it's pitiful." I saw the blue and grey humor covering the lens of the eye swirl to reveal the pupil widening under the cornea. All the walls seemed to slope there. The tendrils holding me above the void relaxed and I slipped slightly. One of my own voices came to me through the growing nervousness, 'a friendly disagreement on a philosophical point...gets a little heated but the good will remains.' While the voice reasoned, the tendrils holding me by my chest suddenly opened so that I dropped several feet, my heart bursting in my mouth. Before I reached the eye, they caught me again, neatly. My hands clawed at the slippery tendrils and I broke into the surface of them slightly. Green oozed out. I could feel the warmth of the creature's body. "Sorry," I said, trying to hide my green fingernails from the eye. "You're as fragile and repulsive to me as a spider is to you. I'm fighting a compulsion to destroy you. Don't think it's your life I'm worried about; it's my own revulsion and fear of you that disturbs me. Your death would be as sad and tiny as the deaths of the ants you wash down the drain. You know we flowers eat thousands of you humans every day." I found myself awash in fluid then and I closed my eyes to protect them. When I opened them again it was to the Brooklyn sky. It was late afternoon and I was lying on my back in the side yard of the Dean Street house among the condoms, empty fruit cans and animal bones. TYPES OF SECLUSION You know the viewer's history but can't recall it now. His people live in nests. Some furtively swill what looks to us like purple water. These end up in the light, like bottles on window sills. The viewer and his kind are transluscent. Ten or fifteen times in a society as complex as ours, someone has crashed his fur-lined van into a minor cup. This means all subsidiary dances are relearned. Most individuals sleep in twiggy wreaths on the floors of the nests, ingesting as they dream the orange secretions. Sleep circles are halls which double as play rooms where ladders ascend trickily over mammoth hairnets. Trapeze swings hurtle to entrance holes of the clock plows. Clock plows house the simple mechanical devices of the morning intuits. The culture knows 1,232 basic devices. The design and philosophy of each are fundamental to the culture and so the viewers strive to understand them. Each clock plow has a code rigged to the frequency of one individual. There is a one-to- one correspondence between clock plows and individuals, so an effort is made to keep population constant. No one knows which plow is his till an inner journey leads him to this discovery. Animals and acrobat filament are part of the cycle, each one having its own plow. The viewer's people are neither male nor female. Acrobat filaments are essential to the web's interlucent transforms. I am watching the viewer now. He mottles subtly. Slender yellow game pieces with orange tips are slid ceremoniously by the entrepreneur from a case lined with velvet. This is a silverware case, a coffin, or a fur-lined van, all comparable parallels. Each game piece resonates to the frequency of the clock plow most sympathetic. The entrepreneur is fat, an important aspect of his role. He is unscrupulous. His fake head dome unscrews and he removes a miniature chase. The fox is after the hare. They stagger across a rubber band. The hare, constructed of paperclips and gummed labels, turns to the viewer, its tiny green eyes magnified twenty-fold by the influorescence of his cornea. A message passes from hare's eyes to viewer's eyes and then into the library. I know this idea but cannot properly interpret it. These messages are not understood, even through the minor albumen trembles. The fox convulses with ginger dust. His gullet, colonized by the humid seacomb, spores and reaches overload at the climax of the chase. It dilates and releases its load. All the ginger sacks open. The wind now gurgles through them, exiting through the belly stoma of the acrobat filaments. The fox quickly produces a watchworks from his pouch. Before the ginger cloud settles, he has solved several dozen randomly generated equations. The solution to the ginger code must be created anew for each emergency. Otherwise, the anxiety addicts build and disassemble emergencies ceaselessly. Frivilous emergencies overtax the fox, who records everything. The hare escapes but exists for only another 20 seconds, as the entrepreneur removes him from the scene and puts him in a flower presser. Now the slender yellow game pieces fit perfectly in the mouth sockets of the entrepreneur and his trainees. All corneas, except the viewer's, can influoresce. Such a capability enables the eye to detect complex interactions between grids of sound and grids of light. The resulting codes elucidate the passage of time. But such vision monopolizes the attention and the inflourescer becomes confused mentally or unstable physically. The viewer who gathered me was named SODA ASH! This is an approximation. In the early hours, he became immensely annoyed when I peed. But otherwise, he liked me and what he perceived as my fragile helicopters. Through his discipline, I soon learned to eat only as much as essential. This cut down enormously on our only conflict. Soon we were interluscent. My first contact with SODA ASH! was his eyes. His cornea was clouded. "Cataracts!" I thought. I was yawning around the area of my navel. Crystals formed on the humor, radiating outward in time-lapse seed. The tender acrobat filaments embedded in the seams of his eye roof retracted their claws. One, alarmed by my appearance, tore into a petal- like protrusion below SODA ASH!'s eyes, accidentally causing a minor infarction which spewed fish. I caught an armful of them and patched back the blue metallic paint on their scales. They tenderly roped into the upper levels. Later, SODA ASH!, in explaining parallel interpretation, told me these were his skin. As the crystals billowed huger than his eye casing without spilling over the boundaries of the casing, every perfect petal bloomed. Some were imprinted with tableaux similar to episodes or flavors of my life. Others showed alien forms. "Sand castles, mud cakes, cakes of ice and snow, apple and zucchini cakes!" SODA ASH! shouted. "Hey, I like that ditty!" A car radio blasting pulled me back to Brooklyn, where a flag of membrane fluttered on my knee. A fly there waxed his front legs precisely as if it rubbed the plane's roar into being. The refrigerator switched off and the members of the Brooklyn Church of the Universal Kingdom of God celebrated on the street. A blue marble glinted under the chin of the cat. I blew on the membrane, feeling slightly nauseous. My ears stopped up with the rush. One rim of crystals spun within another. "Oh! I get it!" he roared. "Movie land!" The livestock mewling. The clay wheel. Fusillade. Shelled means no shell. Nodes of nitrogen on the roots of. Vermiculate sinker. Too sensitive, Elf. Study of carmine. Flowers and insects. "I'll bet a dime." Internalize that one. Name ten things. Ruin is formal. Agape versus agape. Entrance versus entrance. To deceive by a petty trick. Upon waking, neediness. Familiar voice of Kojak makes me want to abandon all pursuits. Ruin is formal. Pinched. Will it turn and allow thought. Which shall first be performed, obligation or necesity. Nico says a companion is who you share the illusion of reality with, a friend is who you can talk about that illusion with. Nico says we have so much information because we treat the world as a thing. My realization upon waking was a woman eating herself so that there were two of heer, phagia and simulacrum phagia. The question is when do we turn around and bite back? No, it is when do we take congnitive realization about the world seriously and act upon it, or are we always misled by the need for comfort. Proven to be a federation of independently oscillating fortunes, one of which will ocassionally overtip another so that the underside, revealed as snake, disolves. Parking lot of Home Liquors. Bill asks, "Is Mike trapped in his playpen?" My circuits do not recognize incremental. That which is most important for me to do is not recognized as valid by my conscious self. That which is most important for me to create is not recognized as valid by my conscious self. What is neediness. You pull off the hairpiece and reveal a row of houses all containing tiny dolls performing various mimicries of your life. All permutations of your behavior are covered, only condition being that if you are watching tv, for instance, each doll must be watching tv. If you are entertaining guests, for instance, all dolls are entertaining guests and saying, yes, I was not aware of the central importance of isomorphism in the eternal golden braid. Shall we take a ride now, pick up a passenger? All dolls turn the key. Their cars may be larger on the inside than on the outside, but they are not in time or space and do not notice any irregularity. One drives by writing her lesson over and over until she has no bad thoughts while writing her lesson. Noone has died because of her lesson and she is relieved. go car, go. One drives by thinking it is so. She is ravaged by a man whom she does not recognize in another row of houses inside her car. Noone has died because of a lesson she has written while thinking bad thoughts and she repeats to herself, all is well. Each ravaging is slightly different. This will allow me to turn my frenzy elsewhere. We have a compact to fear but full. How do we help each other but unroll an insult at every turn so that we are all constantly buffeted by serious challenges to our persons. Like inoculation, where you are injected with a little bit of what you want to avoid. but I wish to break the compact and be less umbraged. Pearl of a thought. This is not unreal. My body is here. Another doll is relieving herself. The toilet will not accept the discard. She dissolves. Centriole. Ruin is formal. Analytic engine. Stentorious. I was a bride. Shall we dance? Yes. I chose I chose. Another doll is watching Kojack. The tv will no longer produce the image. The fuses blow with her. What have I walked inside, meridian? My veins, salads, cortical decisions, a bird constructing its nest, figurative spech, an incomplete metaphor, a lake by another name, civil unrest resulting in death for the patriot, cameras spitting out unexpected ../../images. My body produces toxins and then ameliorates. I sleep longer and trust my dreams. One doll is constructing her nest. Hole hole hole hole. I, the host, like the idea and shove straw in there. She is making fun of me. I know it. What's a little laugh now and then? The straw has fallen out her window and lodged in my nasal passages. I blow my nose. There it is! A pendulum if I ever saw one! One doll, her marsh is failing. She is trying to make fun, but her balance of life is all off. Overabundance of microorganisms which produce methane and the fish are dying and the birds which have no other place to rest in their migrations begin to starve. Birds which migrate over oceans do not land, and they stock up on calories. Birds which migrate over land must make frequent stops. She is trying to make fun of me but can't stop crying. I begin to expose myself to strangers, to tell all. Melodramaticize the simplest things to people who couldn't care anyway. The train stops too early. We who have a coveted destination are annoyed, one or two are distraught. It has snowed. Two spots are before my eyes. I have my period. Not only that, but I'm nauseous, bleeding in my underwear, thighs chafed. Ears fingers and toes are cold. I have to shit. Train stops and we are discharged somewhere in Long Island. There's no bathroom. No, it's only a joke. The doll gets back in, warms her extremities, shits, cleans up the blood, then sits hunched over in the non-smoking car till her stop comes. Her nearby house is warm. It's Friday and she sleeps for two days. Her eyes no longer roll around in the sockets. A Simple Life in a Buzzing Field We think of antecedent being cause, and of such supposed cause as being for its result. So men will fight to alter or maintain an abstract power balance. You might say everything has no end of shadow. Sybarite, plaintiff & bailiff have shadow. Crows at the granary have shadow. So do the hands of a small child in corn. A cackle comes from a far distance. It might remind you of the newscaster repeating the story with the important parts missing. A branch swings down and you discover a vortex in the blossom. Study the eternal golden braid. Study a party hat, a whisker, a rum cellar. Lick the Buddha clean. Touch a light switch three times. It is a string of jewels. How I'd love to live by a lake. How I'd love to make a house in my head. Or X the teapot dome of the American consulate. How I'd love wan falcon under flan. Scan fleur-de-lis. Figure of switch. Bird brain. Operating instructions for the organism inside. Panel circuitry. Sward sward. Or Chlorophyll. Biologist, pale, pushes up through the history of the marsh with his spongy hands. The air under a viscous film, pushes up. Tender grass pushes up. Tendrils of green in water. Limpets. Claws of the pond creature. Chalk with a flower coming out of it. Switch slide, slide, switch slide. A simple code. He pulls up a panel of soft wood. Beetles come out. She gives a growl, showing her teeth. The sum of all numbers is neither an answer nor a buzzing up into the sky uncontrollably. Stupid young man in a museum. Alone, alone in a cage. A beautiful salad. Let me grieve without knowing that I engineered the whole thing. I'm a force of nature like anything else. I can't take the sorrow of it: rose sparrow settling on a wire, the crumbly dirt, you and me getting ready for flight from earth, clouds roping and surging, a building falling into the creek. If it trembles, light the fire and sink down into the clattery gem. If landraces die we lose the incarnation. Winesap apples are a light that comes to you. They are your clocktower your appetite. You have more happiness than a planet. Sew a pocket for your story. The needle is a row of numbers containing the code. I beseech you, flitter me that. I want forest. I want the tree living off the droppings in its hollow trunk. Inky pattern. The hatch opens and smokestacks release the properties of real numbers. Grasshopper is helicopter. Little green things, like the hilum of legume, swallow me everyday. My fist curls moistly. Lawn pine climb flume cone. I have been attempting to contact my ancestors. They are veins in the rock. I tell them what I have found here, giving examples from my skin. Pollen, mites, a crystal from the dirt, a very tiny part of a car, someone else's spit from a balloon, stem rust from wheat, metal from axles, cat dander, flakes of Nico's skin. Where is he. I am anxious to share this with him. I am forever forgetting the caper and running off to take umbrage at some imagined slight. "Morning," I raise my hat. "Ocular impediment," Nico raises his. "Floor shining like your ass," I imprecate. "No blood in the vitreous humor," he rejoinders. "The chiclet tree is endangered," I say. "Yes, I was mourning that." Under the stump lives the indefatigable beetle, master of the universe. I am afraid of the beetle because it does not notice me. Birds are here. I burp loam. Bark is under my fingernails. The tenderest leaves push up. Three grackles in cahoots. The length of time you see her is a factor of how quickly she walks. Centriole canticle. Firemen in a crash. Hacking like a dog on its way to see the pope. Gangly almost. Overcompensation in the brain department, like a hoohoowontaglurot, sighed Karen. Ram like a banshee into the telescope of hermaphraditic flower. Film of bristle. The weight of a thousand sheep in the field, the weight of all thoraxes in the world, the weight of the hydraulic lift or the flag at sea or the carpet of flight 39 or the bottle of cream. Wishes mastering the most random graciousness of the select crux. Hash it over like a ring from mars. More paralysis. Moves like pulling in simultaneously with rejection. Calendar of revenge. Date book of a porch in the frenzy of camera.. Truth is a rusty nut on a tenement roof. So called moray eel frothing with the intellligent intransigence of cellophane. False sheen of distress on the forehead of a friday night. Were you the infant in the blueprint of a room, sitting more for happiness than anything. Your turnaround will be a loss but fire on the boards one two three and a fibrous tear. Cut off in traffic. Glut the tincture of bromide. Crawl in, looking for pollen. Spire falling in a hail of fire. Short spree of heaven. I learn that the trees are not talking to me and my neck is swelling out like a garden in there, bidding for rescue. Brain in a body that won't move. Seminal. Misunderstood. The death of a fly. Earth heaving aside for skeleton of earth. Set it down like a good girl, we'll handle it from here. Halls crowded but a light is coming, I think we'll be healed. What window. Metal chair on a well-worn path. No such thing as hate. The wire's about to burn out. The sum of all numbers is neither an answer nor a buzzing up into the sky uncontrollably. Stupid young man in a museum. Alone, alone in a cage. Let me grieve without knowing that I engineered the whole thing. I'm a force of nature like anything else. I can't take the sorrow of it, rose sparrow settling on a wire, the crumbly dirt, you and me getting ready for flight from earth, clouds roping and surging, a building falling into the creek. Fictions perpetrated. Insurance statistics. Dimpled friends waylaying the unsuspecting muse. A short pale pilgarlic in a pomegranate tennis suit. Fickle orators suspended by ropes of epoxy. The ruins of a made-up civilization. Water polo, women with slits. Helpless archers with knees swollen larger than the doorway to a wine cellar. A simple life in a buzzing field. Dragonfly with his multisyllabic wings. Throatlatch and hock impervious to steam. Withers overcome immediately. The hoax of the century is a prophet 23 inches tall. Nisus in rootweeds. Smoke from your pipe is a signal to me. Semiquaver. Pedagogic expert in a willow patch (I'll bet it's happened!) Shinplaster. No matter what happens, you're left in a dark room. Small soft bodies of the moths. Surprise, a corner. Ozone how I loved you. Now the Aleutians have floated north. Lettersenders are coating los sobres with yellow gloss. The half-human sparrows are fighting off the reign of parasites. The horsesnake nest is stocked with the wines of four winds. The roof is caving. Engine trouble! Dyslexia! Sonorous in dread. Flying with the spirit of a murderer through the wrecked town. Heartlung suture. Primitive cellar. Round cover for the well. Fungus ring. Paper tunnel for the insect. Percolation through the kitchen curtains. The harmless pocket of lake. Vanquished in the hold of the disappearing ship. Alphabet miner's house with a singe of dust. Clever crowd. More happiness than a planet. Panting forever the miraculous song. Messed it up again! Bite the tongue. Learn to sew a pocket for your story. A row of numbers contains the code. I have been attempting to contact my ancestors. They are veins in the rock. A vibration would set them free. It is a vibration I cannot withstand. A song is analagous. I can't write it. I beseech you, flitter me that. I want forest. I want the tree living off the droppings in its hollow trunk. Inky pattern. The hatch opens. Up, down, strange, charmed, bottom, top. Properties of order. Properties of real numbers. Smokestacks releasing the ghost. Miner's hat with its light like electric fish. That is my hill. Grasshopper is helicopter. Mayfly is fishcatcher. Little green things. You will leave behind the rivulet gashes in the walls of volcanoes. You will never forget them. Such a shiny rock. The shattering of seeds. The hilum of legume. It swallows me. Fist curls moistly. Lawn pine climb flume cone. Back flip of the tiniest constituent. They ask me what I have found here. Samples are taken from my skin. Pollen, mites, a crystal from the soil of Idaho, a very small part of a car, fibers synthetic and natural, someone else's spit from a balloon, stem rust from wheat, metal from axles, pullies and coils, cat dander from eight different cats, lactobaccillus, my lover's skin. Where is he. I am anxious to share this with him. Gems, all gems. We found a museum with it. Muscle, nickle, ankle, fossil, castle, pistol, trestle, missile, asshole, sickle, fissure, peekhole, blackhole, cattle, thistle, paddle, tackle, passle, portal, pestle, shekel, petal, hackle, ticker, slacker. Flies in the face of logic and pestilence. Let's leave it there and rejoin the party, ok? His face is beautiful. I ride his lashes. There was a stump. Montana loggers say the only good tree is a stump. But I'm not thinking of that now. There was a stump. We sat there. It was annealed by sun. Under the surface the indefatigable beetle, master of the universe. I am afraid of the insect world because it does not notice me. Birds were there. An ant may have fallen from the branch of a nearby tree. I smelled loam. Bark was under my fingernails. Why do we hate dirt? I asked. The tenderest leaves grow here. Innocence lashes order. Viney embryo yesterday opened underneath. Inflow levitating under octagon vanishing ethereal. Yabbermouth oxygenates upraised hole. Over weathervane in woody oragami ugly little drum louvres on vole's entrance, trips on kestrel's inky sun satchel. You open uncle's oompah. Half of my plan survived the fracture of obstacle. House to house, no shelter. What keeps me from being warm? A lack of wood. Copyright © Noemie Maxwell 1995 |
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